Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
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8:51 pm - Come one Come all.
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since no one commented or anything about me buying the restaurant i figure this is in vain but anyway.
to all who missed the post 3 months ago i am an owner of my own restaurant. i have been working about 80 hours a week for 3 months till i finally felt comfortable enough to quit patsio's. yes, i am finally free.
we are a huge hit people have been bragging about us and been telling all their friends and that is really cool. still not making the daily sales i'd like though. i can pay my bills but no fun money yet.
so anyone who reads this you want to try my restaurant feel free to check us out
Just Fork It (yes that is the name)
1200 lee road
orlando Fl 32810
1 mile west of the I-4 overpass on the left hand side just passed the Volkswagen dealership at the kingswood stoplight.
hopefully i'll see you there
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Friday, April 3rd, 2009
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7:50 am - This is new.
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so... i own a diner. well not quite yet but later today at 4pm i will be finish up the final paperwork. march 21, Saturday this all started so this friday (today) we'll have it. so ya this has been a crazy couple weeks.
i'll be still working at patsios for a month or so just to make sure i can cover my bills and on my days off i'll be working at my place at minimum wage since legally i need to be on the pay roll. so umm... i may be busy for a while. then again it is not like i have anyone to worry about hanging out other than Heather that i'll continue to see every friday, my only day off i'll truely have.
so... 24 and i own my car my house and my own business...what? i think something is wrong with this picture.
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Thursday, February 12th, 2009
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2:21 am - been wanting to post
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i'm been trying to tell myself to post things that i think about on a regular basis. people never really know stuff the goes through my head since i don't say it much then when i do they act like i did a weird trick. maybe not the truth but it seems that way. just somethings that i should have posted a little over 2 months ago.
i thought about a line in a song "now heaven is over-rated" and what that ment to me. i read once in Christan/Catholic religion when you go to heaven you are different than how you are now. certain feelings are not their anymore since you only needed them in the mortal life to fulfill you duties. simply stated you don't feel emotional love but rather a constant feeling of love for everything and an eternal state of bliss. some people think of that fact and think "ya that would be great". though i just don't think so. i can't help to think that that is truly over-rated. i look at the world in the way i see it good and the bad and no mater how bad it is, it is life and a catalyst for enjoyment. if you think about it why would you want to give it up? why live in heaven when this purgatory is so much better?
i know you may not be feeling it but let me break it down a little. love, in the living in the clouds sense is great. the simple feeling of emotional love. it is wonderful, don't focus of the negative part that can come with it. like it being one sided or the fight you may get. what i mean the real feeling of just full heartedly loving someone. it just can't be beat. it is one experience i just couldn't spend eternity without. just the shear pleasure of looking at that one person and the world stops it is fathoms better than that "i love everything" feeling.
now with the you get everything you want in heaven. i hate that too. i have worked for so much in my life from big to small things, and from everything i worked for i get this feeling of accomplishment from it. a feeling of pride knowing i did it my self and with my two hands, with my wit and anything else i used to achieve it. i worked hard and got what i wanted. that is an experience that you only can get from doing it yourself. it is great and wouldn't want to give it up to have everything with no effort.
also i love the bad of life, seriously. we've all had it something bad happens and it sucks. the world spits in your face and you can only grin and bear it, but you deal with it. you pull through and work past it. times that no mater what you do you can never get ahead. then one day, one magical day things just start to work out. things just work out and that is wonderful. you just feel great and the bad things were all worth it. don't you just love that feeling? i mean it is truly that bad you have to suffer though that makes the good things good. if everything was always perfect, good would just be life. it would get monotonous and boring. it is the hardships that makes life worth living, that makes everything pleasurable.
these are things you'd have to give up with heaven. i don't know about you but i wouldn't want to go through eternity with no emotional love, no pride, no experiences and no pleasure. if i had the choice, if there is a heaven and i manage to get there i hope they let me choose. because i honestly would love to come back. heaven is good, but i want to live i would rather be down here to go through the pain to enjoy the pleasure of the hardships i need to deal with.
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something to think about:
happiness. how do you know if you are happy? truly happy?
i say happiness is looking at your past. all the bad things, all the regrets, bad moves, pain, suffering, the memories you deal with, the scars, the things you had to do and ended up doing to be where you are now, who you are now. looking at the past and seeing what you are now. then thinking to yourself and honestly saying... "ya, i'd do it all again."
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i wouldn't want to chance a single move in the fear things would be different now. i love my life and who i live it with. yes i made mistakes. i did and do things i don't like i've forgotten people that i may not find again. but who would i be without them. if i didn't do what i did what would have changed? i can't take that risk i don't wish for things to be different. all i care about doing is continuing to mold my future for the better. this is who i am now this is my life and i wouldn't change that.
for me and not to try to feel superior to anybody and not to win the love and admiration from anybody else i can say to myself "ya i'd do it all again".
Heather means the world to me. i look at how i grew and changed and i see that she loves me. i wouldn't want to do anything different in my past. i wouldn't want to have turned to someone she couldn't love. i have done so many dumb things in my life things i regret all the time, things no one knows. those and other things that i wish not have happened but aren't we all just our experiences and what we learned from them? if i didn't do those things i would not be me and i may not have what i have and be with who i am with.
THIS IS YOUR LIFE, LIVE IT THE BEST YOU CAN AND WITH WHO WILL HAVE YOU. DON'T REGRET, JUST WORK FOR MORE. GAIN EXPERIENCES!
see-ya later.
current mood:  just like that
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Monday, December 1st, 2008
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5:11 am - thoughts...
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The three things you need to be happy:
1: something to do
2: something to look forward to
3: someone to love
The three points of thought:
1: knowledge, what you learn though others.
2: intelligence, knowing how to use that knowledge and how to solve problems.
3: wisdom, what you learn through life, as experiences.
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Sunday, November 9th, 2008
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4:11 am - the walking mind - dying one day at a time.
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These Are the times to remember.
for some reason it keeps running through my head. i am not sure why but some times i get this euphoric feeling about how my life is despite the burdens like work. i am doing great in my life i feel i am way better off then most people and it makes me feel like i am egotistical or just full of myself but i just feel like it is all working out. i own my car even though it is 10 years old and aging. i own my house despite it is a trailer and i don't own the land. i have an occupation not a job i am a cook and i DO know what i am doing despite i hate where i work and i can't find another job for now. i am smart and can do near everything. i built a great portion of my house. i may weigh 202 lbs but i don't look it and i am more athletic than most. i am strong and have great stamina. i have good hair i am not balding nor should i due to genetics. i don't look to bad either i may not win any modeling rolls but i am not going to be scaring off children at a glance. i am not afraid to do things and takes obstacles as a challenge. i never done drugs i don't smoke and never plan to. i may drink but it is seldom but i can still drink a lot under the table. i can be a great friend or a great enemy. i can think on my feet and am good at improv when i need to. i can easily get along with people i want to. i live with the i can do anything mentality and i hope it lasts for ever. i might get mad at some times but it isn't at people but rather situations. i am the walking hypocritical stubborn asshole self contradiction and i am proud of that. if i don't like you i'll tell you and i wish people would return the favor. i may not know everything but i am quick-witted enough to make you think i do. i am honest and rarely ever lie in fact i like to say i never do but we all will once in a while. i have great hand eye coordination and really fast. i have great balance and like to use it. i have stories and theories. i am a teacher to thoughs who are willing to listen. i love to talk and listen i want to share, and love to help. as the time goes bye you may lose touch with me and never see me again but you will remember me. even if you don't remember my name you will remember the guy with long hair that made you think and helped you when you needed it. i made many accomplishments and will continue to make more. i just feel like i have a better grasp on the world than most and feel like i am down right better than everyone else and that scares me. i don't like to feel like i am better then others but as i get to know people i always return to that type of thinking. i like individual persons but hate people. i want to learn from you but i will keep my own veiw of the world. the best part of me and my world, the one thing that tops all that. in fact the reason i now start to see these things and what keeps me going and trying is Heather. the more i think about it all. the more i try to figure things out i keep coming to the idea it all started with her. i liked a lot of my life doing well but always felt like my mind was cloudy and missing something. but a little over 2 years ago when Heather and i started to go out my mind started to clear up. i have the best girlfriend ever. she is perfect even though she might not see it. i have the best love ever. i don't know what really got me to type this. but from that one saying this all came. These ARE the times to remember. you need to know who you are what you can do and what you have done. you need to be thankful for all you have and all you will do. you need to have a plan and need to know it will not fall in your lap you must work for it. i don't get things handed to me i have to work for it. i am grateful for that. you got to earn what you have. coasting through life is not life at all. you may have done a lot but you can always do more. you can work harder and can do better. you need to know to not look at the staircase but just the step in front of you. as you take each step you don't realize how close to the top you get. from the outside looking in you may not see all this you may not know anything, you may think i am just sitting a round but you will never know. you only know what people let you know and everyone makes assumptions. i will go on with my life trying harder and harder i have things to do. i have plans. timing may have slowed things down but you need to wait till it is right to move. you need to deal with the snags and realize if they need more time to work out. live life enjoy love and share stories. you only got one life to live and immortality is gained through sharing what you did with it. so do what you can, talk to who you can and share your lessons. teach with a wise lessen and a light touch. you will never understand it all and maybe you are not meant to but in the end it needs to be done. i just wish i can make everyone understand. i wish i could inspire everyone. i want to touch everyone and get them to think but we can only do so much. a life time is long and you can do a lot. i need to improve the world even if it is only my world the people i met and the ones that let me talk to them. the things i've done goes beyond my years. and i hope i can continue that path.
so this is my mental dump a rare expression of what i am and my thoughts. this is my life these are the times to remember.
PS: don't look to far into this don't assume more from this than just a mental dump. nothing is going on i just felt like typing something. something that is just typed with no pre-thought. life is great.
current mood:  accomplished
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Sunday, September 28th, 2008
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2:26 am - random thought
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love is being thankful to someone for just being alive for another day.
current mood:  philosophical
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Saturday, September 27th, 2008
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7:22 am - one of the funniest things ever.
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Sunday, August 24th, 2008
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11:12 pm - The New Addition
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
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3:37 am - way way way over due
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just so you know. i think most already do by now. i am in my house and gots the internet. i am working on getting everything organized and situated. i still got a lot a head of me but it is getting there. i am fine and awaiting what happens after this lovely storm. until then.
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Saturday, June 28th, 2008
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12:04 am - here i go...
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I am hoping to be in my new place by sunday. this means as it usually does that i may be relatively out of contact for several weeks. my cell will be active but all my cable stuff will not till i can pay the late fee i wrangled up. at this point my floor is complete and primed (just finished the 3rd coat). so all that is left is to build the walls put up the drywall lay the carpet add plumbing and move everything over and all in just one day. after everything is settled down i will take back up carpet in some rooms permanently secure in others fix any holes and put a new sealer coating on the roof. rebuild celling rebuild all the walls build cabinets and anything else i seemed to miss. i got the place for $1200 added about another $1200 for repairs and i got about another $2000 to make it look pretty. i am hoping to get everything done in about 3 months maybe 4. after that i am hoping to make plans for a house warming party. so maybe we'll make it a christmas party.
well this is my goodbye for now, i'll try to keep everyone posted with any updates... and issues i am having and for anyone wondering, YES i am taking picture to let everyone see the progress. i may even make it into a larger timeline picture of what i went through.
best of luck everyone, see-you later.
current mood: exhausted
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Monday, June 23rd, 2008
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2:24 am - OH MY FUCKING GOD NO!!!!
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Friday, June 13th, 2008
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9:34 pm - just a little over the top i think
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Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
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2:31 am - i just have to post this.
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Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008
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3:10 am - this just seemed interesting.
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Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
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2:16 am
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Friday, January 4th, 2008
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7:23 am - interesting
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Thursday, October 25th, 2007
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1:38 am - ...
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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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2:17 am - rather interesting.
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Saturday, October 20th, 2007
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7:31 am - got to love his reaction
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Wednesday, October 10th, 2007
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3:34 am - OMGWTFBBQ!!!111!!456R!A!N!!D!!!O!MS!!TU!F!F!!
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silence